Still Playing it Small With Your Dreams? Stop.

I've played it small for a long time.

I've played it small most of my life, not wanting to claim bigger things for myself out of fear that it wasn't for me. 

After high school, was too afraid to apply to Harvard and Georgetown. When I was little, I had dreams of being a writer and a fashion designer, but thought it'd be more practical to be an attorney instead. I hated it.

Three years ago, I settled for being a teacher because I had focused so much on paying bills and being practical, that, I realized I had no clue what I was passionate about...so teaching seemed to be the logical and safe thing to do for someone with my degree.

This may sound wildly uncharacteristic to those who know me; especially those who have been following my journey lately to becoming a personal trainer and coach.

 And don't get me wrong: I've overcome obstacles and I've created my successes in life; and I have inspired other people. 

But being inspiring to others and creating certain successes in my life doesn't mean that I don't struggle to convince myself that I'm worthy of having the life I desire. 

I have a clear vision of where I want to take my life, and I've worked on crafting that vision in the past year. I want to travel. I want time-freedom. I want to fully enjoy living and create something meaningful every day. Maybe one day I'll write the book that I once fantasized of writing as a high-school girl. 

And yet--that vision, as passionate as I am about having it and creating it, cannot come to fruition unless I feel that I am worthy of attaining and maintaining it. 

I think our success and the beauty of our lives boils down to the question of identity: who do you think you are, and what do you believe you deserve?

Don't we so often speak greatly of ourselves in our conscious lives, only to continue putting our dreams on hold, gripping onto the excuses of not good enough?

I was shocked when I found out that, despite my clear vision, despite my hard work, and despite my passion and desire, I was still not convinced that I am worthy of living a life that doesn't feel emotionally and financially heavy. 

I realized that playing it small--taking baby steps, "going slow," or being cautious of naming bigger, scarier goals--was my safety net. If I play it small, then I won't get disappointed. 

Because I censor myself: things aren't good enough or ready enough or completed. On the road to creating my dream life, there's a battle between my conscious self and my subconscious self. 

But I know better: cutting down my dreams isn't who I am and it isn't what I was created for. 

I think our success and the beauty of our lives boils down to the question of identity: who do you think you are, and what do you believe you deserve?

 

Just as other women have reminded me to take courage and stop playing it safe, I know that who I am as a coach and trainer is to tell other women the same thing. 

And so many of us play it small: we talk about our worth and then turn around and either sabotage our progress or take no action at all. 

I'm here to remind you to identify and call out your fears. Playing it small isn't about safety--it's about not understanding that we're inherently created to shift the world around us

In the world in which we live, we cannot afford the luxury of mediocrity; we can't afford to not make an impact and to not take action. 

Let me be candid: I have no roadmap for my life and neither can I guarantee success...and yet the momentum I'm creating fuels me, and it further reminds me that I'm meant for so much more. 

What is the goal that you deeply desire now, and what's stopping you from making it happen? 

 

 

 

 

 

Libet Chang